Well at least I don’t have to drive up and knock anyone out Just say you had to puke and it didn’t make it better when you did so you went home, I’m sure he’ll get over it if you play up the drunkenness
I love driving I just hate my car It’s a good cover story, you’ll be okay, Lucas used it once to his sports guys and got away with it
I mean I like women and I still think the industry is slimy and as much as women have every right to sell sex men shouldn’t be in charge of that so it’s not hot but that’s a whole feminist rant Which you probably don’t want to be in front of a sports team I’m sorry you had to add another check mark to the list of things that mean you probably don’t like women on your birthday though
I hate your car too. Nick's pretty cool. I don't think he'll give me a hard time about it, but when you add in other guys, it's always hard to gauge how things will go.
Yeah, though I agree. It was gross. I don't know why people get off on it. I mean, I don't know if this is definitive proof, but it definitely ticks in that direction. I like women, I just... I don't know. I think they're pretty and smart and they make dedicated and violent friends, but I haven't felt attracted to one in a long time.
I mean, I know what that should mean, but being gay is such a big thing. I don't want to say it unless I'm absolutely sure. I'd feel like such a fucking idiot if I'm just confused. What if I just haven't met the right girl yet? What if my feelings are just all screwed up because of all the shit we went through? What if I'm just broken and dumb?
I’m still working on fixing her since I can’t exactly buy a new one Yeah, thats unfortunately true, it’s probably better to be called a pussy who can’t handle his liquor than anything the truth might bring up
You’re kinda describing friends there, like obviously I have friends I would get with if I were single but also I can find a girl pretty and wonderful and not feel at all attracted to her, same with guys Obviously maybe you’re right and you haven’t found the right woman and she’ll come along and you’ll forget about you know. Stuff. Shenanigans. I think maybe making big decisions when you’re upset about the shenanigans isn’t a good idea obviously. Don’t box yourself in like that unless you’re all good. But I think trying to be a heterosexual if you aren’t feeling it is gonna leave you empty and that would suck.
Lucas will buy you a new one when he finishes his fancy degree. Something safe and reliable and very uncool. Yeah, they're not much better than Hawkins here.
Yeah, I don't fucking know, Max. I've asked girls out. I've dated them for weeks and nothing changes. It's always me. I can't live the rest of my life on shenanigans. It was one stupid kiss. It shouldn't haunt me for the rest of my life.
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Date: 2024-04-07 10:27 am (UTC)Just say you had to puke and it didn’t make it better when you did so you went home, I’m sure he’ll get over it if you play up the drunkenness
So it was a sexuality crisis?
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Date: 2024-04-07 12:55 pm (UTC)Yeah, you're right. It was a bunch of his teammates that wanted to take me there. I didn't want to embarrass him.
I don't know. Everyone acted like it was so hot and it wasn't. I felt like I wasn't acting enough to fit in and they'd know.
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Date: 2024-04-07 01:29 pm (UTC)It’s a good cover story, you’ll be okay, Lucas used it once to his sports guys and got away with it
I mean I like women and I still think the industry is slimy and as much as women have every right to sell sex men shouldn’t be in charge of that so it’s not hot but that’s a whole feminist rant
Which you probably don’t want to be in front of a sports team
I’m sorry you had to add another check mark to the list of things that mean you probably don’t like women on your birthday though
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Date: 2024-04-07 02:56 pm (UTC)Nick's pretty cool. I don't think he'll give me a hard time about it, but when you add in other guys, it's always hard to gauge how things will go.
Yeah, though I agree. It was gross. I don't know why people get off on it.
I mean, I don't know if this is definitive proof, but it definitely ticks in that direction. I like women, I just... I don't know. I think they're pretty and smart and they make dedicated and violent friends, but I haven't felt attracted to one in a long time.
I mean, I know what that should mean, but being gay is such a big thing. I don't want to say it unless I'm absolutely sure. I'd feel like such a fucking idiot if I'm just confused. What if I just haven't met the right girl yet? What if my feelings are just all screwed up because of all the shit we went through?
What if I'm just broken and dumb?
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Date: 2024-04-07 07:07 pm (UTC)Yeah, thats unfortunately true, it’s probably better to be called a pussy who can’t handle his liquor than anything the truth might bring up
You’re kinda describing friends there, like obviously I have friends I would get with if I were single but also I can find a girl pretty and wonderful and not feel at all attracted to her, same with guys
Obviously maybe you’re right and you haven’t found the right woman and she’ll come along and you’ll forget about you know. Stuff. Shenanigans.
I think maybe making big decisions when you’re upset about the shenanigans isn’t a good idea obviously. Don’t box yourself in like that unless you’re all good.
But I think trying to be a heterosexual if you aren’t feeling it is gonna leave you empty and that would suck.
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Date: 2024-04-07 08:24 pm (UTC)Something safe and reliable and very uncool.
Yeah, they're not much better than Hawkins here.
Yeah, I don't fucking know, Max. I've asked girls out. I've dated them for weeks and nothing changes.
It's always me. I can't live the rest of my life on shenanigans. It was one stupid kiss. It shouldn't haunt me for the rest of my life.
Maybe I'm just ruined.