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I also tend to have a winter breakdown. I can't decide if it's the season in general, or just the anniversary of the past. It's hard.
I don't think people understand until they've felt it themsleves. It's a really messed up club where you only know if you know.

It probably is, but I don't want to wait either. As long as we stay open and honest, we should be okay, right? I want you to tell me if I cause any issues. I really don't want to mess up your life.

Yeah, it'll work out. We'll just take things as they come. I don't mind being squashed with you a little.

I mean, I'm the same way. I've posted my long distance bill on my fridge so I have to look at it every time I think about calling you. Not that it stops me. Sometimes, I just want to hear your voice.

I think for me it’s a bit of both. But the anniversary is never fun even now.
And yeah I agree, at least we have Max in it with us too. She’s usually pretty good at checking in when she thinks I’ll need it even if I haven’t always been great at accepting help.

I don’t think you’re going to mess up my life. If I want to hang out with someone without you I promise I’ll tell you though. Even if I have to share Barbie. Who I think is going to prefer having you here anyway because I’m pretty sure she adopted you when you were talking at hers.

Only for as long as it takes to find somewhere and end the current lease, I’m sure we can survive. We survived months having to share your room even when it was awkward. At least this time I won’t be desperately trying to hide having a crush on you.

I think there should be a thing where you can have calls to one number be free so people who are stuck doing long distance don’t just have to suffer. Though I guess it does mean that I don’t go home from the bar early to call you as many times as I’d like to.

I mean, you two are two of my favorite people, so if I had to be in a fucked up club, I guess I'd want it to be with you two, but I really hate that you two especially know what it feels like to feel that bad. I think she's developed some kind of empath power. She always seems to know when I'm at my rope's end. Or she's come to recognize the signs of self-sabotage, Mike Wheeler edition.

Good, because messing up your life is the last thing I want to do. Yeah? Loosing it in front of the lovely drag queen that I've spent the last few years being stupidly jealous of because she was close to you really only means that our interactions can only go up from there, right? But yeah, I can disappear when you need me to. I'm not going to be calling you multiple times a day to check in on you.

And we don't have to share clothes this round if you don't want to. Though, I always secretly liked it when you wore my clothes, so it's not off the table, either. But yeah, as long as you know I fully intend on acting like a polite guest until my name's actually on the lease.

You might be onto something with that idea. You should pitch it to one of the phone companies. Too bad you can't just call me from the bar and tell them to add it to your tab.

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You do have tells, or you used to and I’m assuming they’re still the same. I’m not surprised Max has learned them, I could kinda tell at the wedding actually because she pretty much had eyes on you at all times.

You won’t! You’ll make it better <3
And you’re fine, honestly I’ve had way messier losing it cries on Barbie than you. One time I left snot on her shoulder and another she washed my disgusting depression sheets and all my dishes and she still loves me.
You were jealous though? For real? I mean that’s kinda adorable but I wouldn’t have wanted to deal with me in some of the situations she had to so you didn’t really miss out on much that wasn’t messy and disastrous.

Mike, your sweaters and hoodies are not safe, you left one here last time and I would have worn it if I wasn’t just keeping it on the pillow instead. I love stealing clothing from people I love who smell good, I should probably try and give them all back now they just smell of my detergent. Also don’t be silly, you should make yourself at home any time you’re here.

Oh I would but I don’t need my friends to overhear our conversations, so going home in time to call it is!

I do? Like what? Jesus, I was a mess at the wedding. I feel like everyone ended up babysitting me instead of having a good time.

I was really jealous. I thought you'd replaced me with someone with better eyeliner skills. :D It's not that adorable, it's dumb, especially since she's been so good to you. I'm glad that you did and you do have her to help during the really hard times.

God, I swear I'm not doing myself any favors but I left it because I kept thinking that maroon one you were wearing might have been an ex's and I wanted to think about you in mine instead. I swear I'm not a jealous asshole all the time.

Yeah, you're right. They probably can't handle us recounting what we did during the day or Hawkins gossip. Too steamy.

TFLN @ willtheunwise

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